Breastfeeding

I never knew how amazing this experience would be. Most who know me know that I was unable to breastfeed my other 2 daughters due to complications. They were both preemies, and being in NICU made it much harder not to mention all the meds I was on. I was lucky enough to give them breast milk via a breast pump but that only lasted for about a month. Sadly I had to transfer them to formula. So with this one I found myself wondering if it would play out the same again.
I recall while waiting for my c-section the nurse had asked if I planned on breastfeeding. Just as I told, Abby was given to me after I was all sewn up. Breastfeeding Abby came very naturally. She however was unable to stay with me in room the first day because I was still on mag. That meant they were bringing her into me every 3 hours. She was to be placed with me the next morning once I was taken off the mag but unfortunately her bellyrubin (aka Jaundice) came back a bit high and she had to be placed under a lamp for the next 2 days.
Her being placed into NICU started giving me insecurities. First off i was informed that although i could and they recommend me to continue her breastfeeding they would also be supplementing her. I was a bit upset but given my medical knowledge and background i knew it really was for the best. I suddenly found myself questioning if she was getting enough and worried if she would reject the breast.
Well since then Abby and I have been home she is fed only by the breast. The appointment with the lactation nurse went well and everything seems to be fine. Yes I'm lacking some sleep but its definitely worth it. Its been 2 weeks and it has been amazing and beautiful journey so far. Everyone in my household and other family members have been so supportive of my choice. Karl has been right by my side at just about every feeding helping anyway he can. The sharing and support I'm getting is more then i could imagine. Even my girls join in on the experience.
I'm proud of my choice!

Recovering

I have been recovering from my c-section and starting to get back into the groove of things. Lack of sleep and preps for school have got me hella tired but none the less I have apparently been doing way to much. I know that having a c-section is considered a major surgery and your suppose to take it easy but that's not me. I was ready to get up and moving once all feeling came back to my legs. My Nurses and Dr's were surprised by my uplifting spirits and determination. They actually had to tell me to stop walking so much and to rest at the hospital.

Home has been a different story.
I've been told to stop doing so much but its my house and my family. I have to take care of things. Yes I just had a c-section but at the same time I'm starting to feel like myself again pre pregnancy. I already feel more energized and stronger. My moods are much more on the strong, confident, happy side. I'm wanting to hit my treadmill and walk for an hour. Unfortunately I was told by the Nurse who called to check up on me yesterday that I'm doing way to much and need to slow down. So now I'm struggling to relax and Karl has banned me from the treadmill although I keep eyeballing it every time i go to the kitchen. I know that its something that will make me happy again. Soon.....

I have so much more to write about but am going to break it up into several blogs. I'm going to try and write at least 2 a day to catch everyone up. Until then.....

Maybe.....

A Positive Maybe

Maybe... we were supposed to meet the wrong people before meeting the right one, so that, when we finally meet the right person, we will know how to be grateful for that gift.

Maybe... when the door of happiness closes, another opens. But, often times, we look so long at the closed door that we don't even see the new one which has been opened for us.

Maybe... it is true that we don't know what we have until we lose it, but it is also true that we don't know what we have been missing until it arrives.

Maybe... the happiest of people don't necessarily have the best of everything, they just make the most of everything that comes their way.

Maybe... the brightest future will always be based on a forgotten past. Afterall, you can't go on successfully in life until you let go of your past mistakes, failures and heartaches.

Maybe... you should dream what you want to dream, go where you want to go, be what you want to be. Because you have only one life and one chance to do all the things you dream of.

Maybe... you should always try to put yourself in others shoes. If you feel that something could hurt you, it probably will hurt the other person, too.

Maybe... you should do something nice for someone every single day, even if it is simply to leave them alone.

Maybe... giving someone all your love is never an assurance that they will love you back. Don't expect love in return, just wait for it to grow in their heart. But, if it doesn't, be content that it grew in yours.

Maybe... happiness waits for all those who cry, all those who are hurt, all those who have searched, and all those who have tried. For only they can appreciate the importance of all the people who have touched their lives.

Maybe... you shouldn't go for looks, they can deceive. Don't go for wealth, even that fades away. Go for someone who makes you smile, because it takes only a smile to make a dark day seem bright. Find the one that makes your heart smile.

Maybe... you should hope for enough happiness to make you sweet, enough trials to make you strong, enough sorrow to keep you human, and enough hope to make you happy.

Maybe... you should try to live your life to the fullest because when you were born, you were crying and everyone around you was smiling. But when you die, you can be the one who is smiling and everyone around you crying.